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Tuesday, October 23rd, 2007
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WHY AM I AWAKE? I Have work in about 6 hours hahaa
I'm trying to really buckle down and get myself into school mode. I don't know what it is with me lately but I have no motivation. Where did my motivation go? I remember being so motivated when I was an undergraduate (well, that's not entirely true. The one thing I hate with the passion is studying for tests. Dude, I'd rather sit here at my computer and write a 50 page paper than to study for a test.
I don't know what my problem is though, as I was saying. For the past month, I've been saying okay I'm going to get motivated tomorrow and then tomorrow comes... do you see me getting motivated? NOOOOOO. I'm too busy watching TV, listening to music, BSing with my family, playing acrophobia, talking to Lynn on the phone every night...
it never ends
Well tonight I finally sat here and did some work for school. Which explains why I'm still awake at such an odd hour. Wait.. I stay up this late every night, regardless of how early I have to get up.
I made so many typos typing this by the way.
Tomorrow I have class. Let's see how motivated when I get home tomorrow night at around 8:30PM.
I have a feeling I'm going to be meeting procrastination instead.
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Saturday, October 13th, 2007
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The Beatles at Shea Stadium. I LOVE this clip. Especially the part when John is about to announce the next song and he goes, "Hahaha look at that" because a girl escaped from behind the barricade and was getting chased by the cops. HAHAHA that would be me if I had been there. Also, they are cracking up during "How can you laugh when you know I'm down?"
Love them. And I should be working on schoolwork.
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Tuesday, August 31st, 2004
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I haven't been sleeping that great lately and now I think it's catching up with me. I stayed up all night last night and now I'm stressing out for no reason. When I do sleep. all I do is dream. I can't even tell you what these dreams are about because they are really weird.
My head just started to hurt about fifteen minutes ago. Completely out of nowhere. I don't know why I'm even sitting here at the computer so I think I should turn it off for the night and go to sleep.
I have so much stuff to do tomorrow like work and then I have my first class. It's at night so I hope I get one of those teachers who let's you leave an hour before you're supposed to. Night classes are usually like that except my American Governement teacher wasn't. Occassionally, you get a teacher like that who makes you stay the entire time.
Anyway, I'm gonna call it a night and I'm going to sleep. Goodnight!
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HAHA Baby Boom is on. This movie is great. I love when Diane Keaton flips out on the plumber when her well dries up.
She is such a great actress. I love when she freaks out on the high rise in the First Wives Club. It's like Sally Fields too when she freaks out. HAHA Soapdish is the best.
I am being totally random but this is coming from someone who hasn't slept.
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Monday, August 30th, 2004
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I hate the trains in my town. I HATE when they block the road for 20 minutes because they feel the need to go back and forth over the tracks a million times. And when you love to drive like me, that could be really annoying. That's happened to me twice since Friday.
Tomorrow is my last day to be lazy. I start school on Wednesday and I have a lot of hours at work. And so it begins. I'm excited about it, really. So, tomorrow I'm sleeping in late and I'm going to try not to do anything productive.
I don't know what my online time is going to be like. The last two semesters I didn't really have a lot of work to do for school because my one class was just reading and writing essays and the other class was open book/notes take home tests. I am taking 13 credits and a psychology lab so I really don't know. But, if you don't see me online a lot starting this week you know why.
Lacy said she wanted to come here in December with Lynn so we can hang out in NYC. I can't wait to meet them, if they are really serious about coming here. I'm even willing to drive to the airport to pick them up when they get here. I've met two of my online friends already and I had a great time both of the times.
I got a 100 at work. YAY! Some secret shopper came on my line and I did everything I was supposed to do. It made me feel really great because I didn't think I'd ever get one. Sometimes I don't do everything because it's really lame but lately the job hasn't been bothering me. Not even nasty customers. You can't let them bother you or you will go crazy. I like the people I work with and I think that's why I like it. And the regular customers who come in all the time. A lady told me today that I was the best cashier she's had in a long time. That made me happy to hear.
I'm going to go relax before I go to sleep. Goodnight!
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Saturday, August 28th, 2004
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YAY! Lynn is going to come here in December so we can go see Joey Mac in Wicked.
I am so excited! We have never met before and she wants to see NYC and I'm right by there. We're both on winter break at the same time so this will be so cool!!
Lacy should come too but I don't know if she will.
I almost forgot that I was getting my hair cut and highlighted today. Well, I remembered last night. It takes so long but I need to do it because my hair is pissing me off right now. I think I'm going to get the red highlights again but I'm not sure. I will ask Maria when I get there.
See you later. And no I wasn't involved in that chat last night when you all were talking about you know what.
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Friday, August 27th, 2004
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HAHA I'm talking to Lacy and Lynn. I've known them forever but I've never actually met them. We met in a Titanic chatroom when the movie first came out in 1997 and we've been talking ever since.
I instant messaged Lacy because I was reading these old letters from all my friends and I came across one of hers that made me laugh. We made these fake emails once and spammed this message board. We used to do that when we were bored and it was so funny. We made so many people mad at us but we didn't care at that time. We used to laugh so hard when we did that because we would quote from movies and post songs and stuff and the message board was for fans of someone.
I wouldn't do it again but at the time it was hilarious. So then Lynn came online and I told her I was talking to Lacy. Me and Lacy ended up calling Lynn at almost the same time hahaha so I hung up with Lynn and called Lacy. It was so funny. I guess you have to be there to get it.
I'm babysitting tonight, kind of. My sister is only across time but she put the baby to bed and usually Gianna sleeps through the night. She sleeps really good. The other day she went to climb the fence at daycare and she was almost in the neighbors yard! haha she got yelled at by the lady who watches her. So, today she was trying to tell me the story "juuu-eee...." That is how she says Judy, the lady who watches her. And she was getting mad because my sister was talking to her about it. It sounded like she was trying to correct my sister. Like Jackie wasn't getting the story right.
She is too much. She is starting to repeat words more now and I was trying to teach her what sounds different animals make. She does a fish face for a fish and she knows that a puppy barks. We're trying to teach her the other ones but she doesn't get it yet.
My cold is annoying me so I think I'm gonna go lay down. Goodnight!
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Thursday, August 26th, 2004
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I finally did sleep with all that construction noise. I was so glad because I'm not feeling all that great. I can't stop sneezing and my nose is all stuffy. I was going to leave work early but I need the money so I decided to stay.
Speaking of work, my friend Tessie cracks me up so much. I came in and she is telling me this story about how yesterday she got into trouble for taking a long break when it was busy. She was all in my face telling me this as I was trying to check customers out. And she talks a mile a minute. I even asked her in the middle of her talking, "Has anyone ever told you that you talk too fast?" And she started laughing. This one time I was telling her how broke I was but I was hungry. She was like "Go to the deli and get one piece of chicken." hahaha because it's kind of expensive. Then the next day she had stopped in on her lunch from her other job and she was like, "I don't know what to get for lunch." So I told her, "Go get one piece of chicken." haha you had to be there. So that's our inside joke. She cracks me up.
Then we were doing the close for the night and my manager Allan put the till on the ledge of the register and he thought I had taken it and it was balanced, but it wasn't. So you know what happened. Yup. Change and rolled coins, dollar bills all over the floor. It was hilarious.
I'm really tired and I should sleep since I'm sick. I hate this but I don't take medicine because it makes me feel worse than I already do. I usually drink hot lemon water because it helps. It doesn't make me feel worse at all.
I need to get ready for school. I will have to see what my schedule is like next week. I go back on Wednesday. Yeah! I can't wait. I just hope this cold goes away by then.
Goodnight all.
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Wednesday, August 25th, 2004
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WHY ARE THERE STUPID CONSTRUCTION WORKERS OUTSIDE MY HOUSE?
I don't feel good, dammitt. I want to sleep. But my stupid neighbor is getting his sidewalk redone or something and these guys are out there making noise! I thought my neighbor already redid his house! I can't stand him anyway.
I can't breathe. And I only slept four hours because of that. I don't have work until later so I would like to sleep, but noooooo these idiots are out there.
People suck sometimes.
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Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
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My sore throat has went away. But now I keep sneezing and I know for a fact a cold is coming on because I can hear it in my voice. I'm glad I'm getting sick now and not in 2 weeks when school starts. Might as well get it over with if it's going to happen.
I'm working nights (not the overnight) all week at work. Which I don't care. I have off Friday and Saturday so I made an appointment to get my hair highlighted and cut on Saturday. I'm so excited because my hair is too long right now. I don't know if I want to do the red highlights again because they look really nice in the sun but now it's going to be the fall. I really loved them a lot but I will see what the lady says when I go there. I've been going to her for about 7 years and everytime she wants to do something new I let her do whatever she wants to. And I always love it. I know I don't want blonde because I didn't really like it and that's more for the summer like the red is. I will have to see when I go there.
I really need to clean my room. Like big time. I am definitely doing that on Friday when I have a day off. I can't take it anymore. I also need to get my eyes checked because it's been over two years since I've done that. My insurance covers it so all I would have to do is make an appointment and go there. So, I will probably do that next week because I start school September first.
I am so excited about school. I can't wait to get into my classes. I have doubts because I think I took too many credits and two of the classes are going to be a lot of work. But, I know I will find a way to get through this semester. I was feeling crappy lately but now I am feeling better. It comes and goes in cycles and I just have to roll with it because I know how the cycle is. I was thinking about it and who knows? Maybe going in to the psychology field is the best thing for me because I want to help kids. I think they are the only type of people I always have patience for. Other people can get on my nerves sometimes but kids are different. I'm really good with them. And maybe somewhere in my education I can find ways to help myself deal with my own problems. I think I can learn a lot about myself in the process.
Anyway, I am rambling and I'm sick so I'm going to call it a night.
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Saturday, August 21st, 2004
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I got an extra hour and a half at work tonight. Overall, I've gotten about 5 extra hours. I can always use the extra money, especially now when my bills are starting to pile up.
These ladies came in my store today and we are having triple coupons. They came to the self checkout where I was so I decided to go over and check them. Half of them were expired. I called my manager over and she told them they are no good and she even ripped them up in front of them. Then they were complaining that we don't have the right to do that, which is bullshit. If the coupons are expired no stores will take them anyway. And if we give them back, they will try to rip our store off again or another store and that's not fair to the people who are honest.
Then, they went to another register because they froze the one they were at originally. Their amount ended up going into the negative, which is not supposed to happen. So, I checked their coupons again. The one lady accused me of spying on her and said I only watched her. Which wasn't true because I walk back and forth in front of all the registers, I don't just stand at one. She was like "You're spying on me!" hahaha and she was so mad. She knew we had caught her so too bad.
Triple coupons are evil.
I have a really bad sore throat and I feel icky. I am tired too. I have no appeatite but I forced myself to eat something. I drank some really hot lemon water with some honey but my throat still hurts. It feels like it's on fire and I have no energy.
I think it's bedtime for me. As sad as that sounds but I really don't feel good at all.
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I am up so early. My throat is all scratchy and I threw up before, not to be gross or anything. Now I can't go back to sleep and I have work in a few hours. I want to sleep but I feel awake but crappy at the same time. And I've barely slept.
I called some places for my car on Thursday before I went to work. I think I'm going to have to put fixing it for a few months because I don't have the money right now. I am more worried about my bills. It sucks because it makes me sick to look at it but what can I really do?
I've been trying to get out of this mood I've been in. The past couple of days I've felt okay because I worked a lot of hours and when I'm at work I feel better. Maybe it's being around people, particularly my co-workers and the regular customers I see every day. But, I feel better when I'm there. The only time I feel better at home is when the baby is here because she makes me smile.
I was thinking of telling my mother how I've been feeling. But, she won't understand. She never has. Everytime I tell her I'm depressed she says, "Carrie you're young you have no reason to be depressed." She doesn't realize that it's out of my control. Most times nothing has to happen for me to feel this way. It happens in cycles. Sometimes when it comes it's worse than others. It's just out of my control and it's something I've had for as long as I can remember. I started crying the other day for no reason because I'm sick of being like this.
And my mother doesn't understand that. She thinks I feel like this and I can just snap out of it. Sometimes I can but sometimes I can't. At least not right away. Sometimes it takes me days. Sometimes weeks.
I don't know. It would be a waste of time if I told my mom. So I'm not going to bother. She never understood it.
I feel so crappy so I'm going to lay down before I have to work.
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Wednesday, August 18th, 2004
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I really wanted to post some pictures from the beatlemania thing I went to the other night but I can't seem to find anywhere to upload them. Bummer.
I have to get an oil change tomorrow and call some places to get estimates on my car for that dent and the scratch. I have to get that fixed but I hope I can get it done before I go back to school September first. I hate worrying about money. I really don't have the money to fix the car but I have to get it fixed.
I have been in a bad mood all night. I don't know why. I think I'm feeling depressed a little bit because I'm worried about money and I seem to worry about a lot of things. I worry I won't be able to pay my bills this month because my car insurance has to be renewed for the year and that's more than I usually pay for it. I worry that I won't be able to handle my classes in the fall because I think I took too many hard classes. I worry that I'll fuck up my financial aid and I will get screwed with that. I'm mostly worried about money.
I feel like I have no friends sometimes. I really do. I miss my best friend but she hasn't been able to drive and I won't drive to where she is. She is thinking about doing this medical procedure and if she does, she won't be able to drive for a whole year. And if it doesn't fix her medical problem, then she won't be able to drive at all. I miss going out to lunch with her and talking and laughing at everything. I rarely go out and if I do I'm alone.
Sometimes I feel like my family doesn't want to be around me. I feel like they ignore me sometimes. I was so upset earlier when I came home from work but then I saw the baby and she made me feel better. She always makes me smile and that's something that is very good for me because she always makes me happy.
She calls water "watee" haha I don't know where she got that but she was in the kitchen with a little paper cup going "wateee" and pointing. Then she wanted ice so she said "ice" as she pointed to the freezer. She is too funny. Before she was hitting everyone with this ball that was on a string and we had to take it away from her. And last night she was sitting on the kitchen floor eating blueberries and she wanted me to sit with her. Then she kept saying "more more" because she wanted me to put more in her little bowl. And she was smiling so big.
It's things like that that make me smile and make me happy. I am so tired right now and I guess I should go lay down or something because I have shit to do tomorrow.
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Tuesday, August 17th, 2004
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My mother and I drove down the shore yesterday morning so we could go see Beatlemania. We got to the club around 8 and hung out because the band didn't come on until 10pm. I sat with my cousin Nicole and we were making fun of the people dancing on the floor. HAHA Nicole said one of the girls looked like a man and there was this couple dancing to "Hound Dog" but they were really good. Another lady couldn't dance for anything and she was right by us. It looked like she was punching the air. It was so hilarious but then again, me and Nicole laugh at everything.
I went to the bathroom and when I came back some lady was ordering a drink by my seat. My mother comes out of nowhere and taps the lady on the shoulder and says, "Excuse me, this seat is taken." The lady got an attitude as she said she was just ordering drinks. I said to my mom, "Mom, calm down she is only ordering drinks." haha me and Nicole thought there was going to be a fight. My mother was on a roll though because later on she knocked some lady's purse off one of our seats when she went to sit on it.
The band was so good. They pretty much looked like the Beatles, except for George. I think he was too chubby to look like him. They did the early Beatles, Sgt Pepper, Magical Mystery Tour, and then Abbey Road. They dressed like they did in each era and the best was the fact that the Ringo was bopping his head around like Ringo used to do in the early days and of course the Sgt Pepper outfits were really great too. I didn't think the John looked like John when they went to Abbey Road. He did, but there was something about him that made him look like he didn't. I think it was the wig he had on. I later found out that the guy really has curly hair hahaha.
Anyway, they sang a lot of songs. The show was three hours long and I wanted to get a lot of pictures. At first, I sat by the bar but then I moved to the floor and took some from there. I couldn't really see the Ringo because his cymbals were blocking my view. They sang so many of my favorite songs so I was having fun.
My Aunt Sharon had me cracking up because during "Hey Jude" she was standing right behind me and she was screaming on the "Na na na" part like the Beatles did in the song. That scream they do in the background all crazy. It was the funniest thing. And my mom yelled "I love this song!!" SO loud when they played "Here Comes the Sun."
I need to get ready for bed because I have work early tomorrow. I just sent the pictures I took there to some of my friends and my family. I am so tired and I wasn't feeling that great today. I had to leave the beach early and go back to my aunt's because I felt crappy. If I remember anything else from last night I will be sure to update about it.
Beatlemania was really great and if they come around here again I will definitely go see them.
Goodnight.
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Monday, August 16th, 2004
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I worked 4-11PM tonight. It feels so good to finally be off the overnight shift. I didn't want to work it anymore, even though I made more money. I'm exhausted and I really should be sleeping because I have to get up early tomorrow. I'm going back down the shore with my mother for a few days. I'm glad that I'm going to be able to spend time with my mom, just me and her because we barely ever do that. Sometimes I feel like we aren't as close as we should be. We've been through so much together but sometimes I can't tell her how I feel or what I think. It's something that's been happening for as long as I can remember.
Anyway, we are going to see that beatlemania thing tomorrow night. I am bringing my digital camera so you can all expect to see pictures from that when I come home. I hope the weather is nice there on Tuesday because I want to lay out on the beach for a little while again.
I should sleep. My heart goes out to all those people who have suffered from hurricane charley. I seriously think that when there is a lot of hate and negativity on a mass level - like too many people hating and killing and all bad stuff - that's what causes these natural disasters to happen. I read that in a book somewhere once and it makes sense to me. It's just too much negative energy going out there, you know? It probably doesn't make sense but I think that's the way this universe works. But what do I know?
My heart goes out to those families.
See you all in a couple of days.
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Friday, August 13th, 2004
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I went to the mall with my sister, the baby, and her friend Jennifer and her 4 year old son Liam. We went to this jewelry store and Jen is asking my sister if she should ask her fiance if she can upgrade her engagement ring. Don't you think that's kind of wrong? The guy buys her an engagement ring and she wants to upgrade it. My sister told her she shouldn't ask him that but she probably will anyway. The baby got so tired in the car on the way home and she was crying so much. I feel so bad when she cries like that.
Me and Jackie got Gameboy Advance because my cousin Alyssa has it and we were all playing it down the shore. We got a Mario game with it but I don't really play video games because I'd rather watch other people play. I used to get so pissed when Jackie was playing and she died in the games. She used to tell me to calm down LOL.
And we let Gianna throw pennies into the fountain at the mall. It was so cute. Jackie needs to send me the pictures from down the shore so I can send them to people. We took some of the baby on the beach and some at the mall today.
Me and my mom are going to go back down the shore on Monday and Tuesday because they are having that Beatlemania thing down there Monday night. I can't wait but I am wondering what it is exactly. I'm assuming it's a band that dresses like them and sings all their songs. We were going to leave Sunday night but my mom wants to leave Monday morning. So, that's what we're going to do.
I need to get ready for school. I'm worried I will be overwhelmed because I'm taking a psych lab and three other classes on top of that. I haven't gone full time for about a year and a half but I should be okay. It will keep me busy and off the computer because I stay on here too long. I've been really good lately because I get bored easily.
I don't know what time I'm working on Sunday but I hope I start at 6 in the morning. Then I can get out early. I'll have to see when I get my schedule tomorrow.
I am going to wait until my brother comes home because he had to borrow my car today and I need to cash my check so bad.
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Thursday, August 12th, 2004
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We're back from the shore. I had so much fun because the best part was being with my family. Gianna did not sleep at all on the way down there so I was surprised. We met my family at a diner and that was cool because my cousins from Virginia came. I haven't seen them in awhile and my cousin Jackie is about to have another baby. When we were leaving the diner, they had this claw machine that you play until you win. My sister Jackie got the baby two in one time and that was funny because she's the one who said we couldn't win anything because our car was really packed.
I ended up going to some party the first night with my Uncle John and Aunt Carol and my cousins Jean and Vito. Let me just say that my aunt and uncle don't know when to leave anywhere. Me and Jean wanted to leave at 9 PM but I didn't get back to my hotel until after 2 AM. My cousin Nicole told me the next day that if she was around she would have warned me not to go with them.
Sunday night more of my cousins came down. Usually we go to this place called The Surf Club but they wanted 15 dollars to get in and we couldn't bring the babies. Which was bull because we do that every year. I'm glad we didn't go there and it was really their loss because there were about 30 of us and we would have brought them so much business. So my uncle found this bar called Captain Hooks and it was so much better. They had ping pong tables, pool tables, and video games. So the kids had fun. And the bartender loved us because she would have been dead that night if we weren't there. She told us to come back next year.
I sat on the couch with my cousin Nicole for awhile. She was drinking Coronas and I was drinking Coors Light. I don't know where she went but I ended up talking to my cousin from Virginia for a little while. My mom and her cousins were dancing and singing so I hung out there too. I went to the bathroom and left one of my beers on a table, came back, and it was gone. So my mother bought me a new one.
I started walking back to my aunt's house with my aunt and uncle and we were walking down the street cracking up at nothing. That last beer I had really did me in because I ended up throwing up at the house. I went home after that and Jackie put the baby to bed and left her with me. I was passed out asleep so it was fine. I wish I had stayed at my aunt's but I felt so crappy from drinking too much.
We also spent a lot of time at the beach. I fell asleep on it for a little while and tried to go in the ocean but I really hate it. So, I went to my knees and that's it. My cousin Ryan from Virginia is 12 and he was out there with his friend and they were on the boogey boards. Even my cousin Jackie who is pregnant was floating out there. I ended up getting tan but burnt on my legs. And only in certain spots. It's so weird. I don't get it.
Then one of the nights I went out on the boardwalk with my cousins - Jackie and Donna and Ryan and his friend. The boys wanted to go on some rides and play some games. I really want to go out and visit them in Virginia one of these days. The drive there is like 7 or 8 hours and I don't like to drive. Maybe my mother will want to go and maybe we could fly instead of drive there. I think that would be cool. I think my cousin Jackie is in Virginia Beach too.
I'm so tired from the ride home yesterday. Gianna did sleep but it was raining pretty hard on the way back. I have to do some laundry and pay some bills but I don't think I have the energy for that today. Maybe later since I'm off from work until Sunday morning. I'll have to see how I feel later.
I'm leaving so much out about my vacation but another time. I can't think right now.
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I find myself getting irritated by the littlest things and stupid things too. I don't know why I feel the way I do sometimes. Maybe I'm just bored with the way my life is going. I work and sleep. Watch TV. Sometimes I go to the bar. I haven't been there in awhile though. Sometimes I feel like my family doesn't like to have me around so I lock myself in my room. Sometimes I feel like I don't belong in my own house. And my family is against me. I don't know why I feel this way. I really don't.
I can't wait for school to start. I don't sleep right. I don't eat right. My stomach has been bothering me on and off for days now and maybe it's because I'm not really taking care of myself as far as eating and sleeping go. Every day I hear myself saying I'm not feeling that great. And I think all of these things I'm feeling is because I'm bored. I'm bored with everything around me.
I really don't want to go down the shore with my family. Not anymore. I almost told my mother today that I wasn't going to go but I don't know. I'd rather just stay home but maybe getting away is what I need. I just want to be alone but I don't think that's going to help any. So, maybe I should just go or see how I feel later on this week.
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Thursday, July 29th, 2004
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I just went shopping. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. It gets me so frustrated and my mother is annoying sometimes. I appreciate that she took me but she can get annoying.
When I was in the dressing room, I found someone's wallet and my mom turned it in to an employee. There were gift cards and money in there and someone else might have pocketed it, but my mom had her wallet stolen before and I knew exactly how that feels to have it happen to someone.
I'm so tired right now. I might go to sleep early. Sleep sounds really good and my head kinda hurts. I think the heat gives me headaches because I get then a lot.
I am off to lay down for a little while.
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Well, I'm home from work.
I slept a little bit yestersday because my sister told me she was taking the baby to the fair in my town. We went there with my cousins.. we had Gianna, a 7 year old and another baby that is a few months older than Gianna. My sister took Gianna on the carosel but I don't think she liked it very much. She wanted to get off the horse. Maybe she will like it when she gets a little older.
She is too cute. Now her thing is to look out the window and tell everyone whose car is whose. She will stand there for 10 minutes or more and say "Caaaa-ie", "Miiiii" (that's how she says my brother, Mike's name), "Mommy" and "Ma" (that's how she says Grandma) as she points to all of our cars. After the first couple of times we're all like alriiiiiight Gianna we know. In ten minutes our cars will still be there. It's so cute though.
And the other day my sister was looking in a catalog of things she wanted to buy and she says, "Gianna, don't you wish we had more money?" and Gianna puts her head on Jackie's shoulder and nods her head all sad. It was the funniest thing!
The other night my mother turned on the lottery and Gianna's going, "ball! ball! ball!" over and over and over again. Me and my mom were like okaaaaaay we know we know. HAHAHA she's going through a repeating phase. I can usually understand her but sometimes I can't. I bet if we were in a store or something most people wouldn't understand her. Like when she says outside, she only says ide.
She is growing up so much and I could never imagine not having her around most of the time. I don't know what we're all going to do if Jackie ever decides to move out.
I finally told my manager that I don't want to work overnights anymore. I'm going to work next weekend and then I'm on vacation. We're going down the shore for a few days but Jackie took the same week off so we might do day trips with my best friend and her son. Then the next weekend I'm going back down the shore for two days so I requested either morning or night hours.
Then the week after that which would be the 22nd and 23rd I'm going to work the overnight and that will be my last time. So, technically I have only two more weeks of working it and then I'm going to work what I used to work. I'm not looking forward to it but I have to do what I have to do. The great thing is that I'm going back to school full time and that's something I really want to do. I figure I'll have my bachelor's in a little less than two years if I go in the summer. And then I can say goodbye to this job.
Which reminds me that I have to call the bursar's office to find out how this financial aid works. They haven't credited my balance and I have a feeling I have to do something else before I get it. I got a couple of grants and the rest are loans but I don't have to pay them back right away. My friend at work told me they don't start asking for the money back until 6 months after and you can pay monthly. By that time, my computer will be paid off (it should be by Sept. the latest). I want to go further than a bachelor's degree but I'm not sure what i have to do or where I can even go to school. I will cross that bridge when it comes.
I'm supposed to be hearing from my insurance company within the next couple of days. The guy I talked to said I can find my own shop or use one of theirs. I don't know what I'm going to do yet, but I want to get it fixed before I go back to school.. probably when I'm on vacation. I want to see if I can save at least 100 dollars for my deductible between now and then.
I need to get some sleep but I want to see if Jackie wants to take the baby to the store where I work because everyone there hasn't seen her in awhile.
Okay, Goodnight!
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